Calm down.
Lately, I can’t control my emotions quite right. I raged just because a friend pulled an old joke. I pretty much ‘assaulted’ him via the internet, even though i know it’s just a joke. And i raged for every other little things deep inside.
It might be the pressure of midterm exams.
It might be the pressure of midterm exams with other complications like the stack of assignments.
It might be the pressure of midterm exams with other complications like the stack of assignments WHERE NO ONE IN MY GROUP ACTUALLY TRY TO CONTACT ME AND WORK ON IT.
It might be the pressure of midterm exams with other complications like the stack of assignments WHERE NO ONE IN MY GROUP ACTUALLY TRY TO CONTACT ME AND WORK ON IT AND AN ASSIGNMENT WHERE THE DEADLINE IS IN 6 HOURS AND IN TRUTH THERE ARE 20 NUMBERS AND THE GODDAMN LECTURER DON’T WANT TO COMPROMISE THE FACT THAT THERE ARE TWO OTHER ASSIGNMENTS AND AN EXAM WAITING THE VERY NEXT DAY.
I know, I am wrong for actually doing the very same thing that my groupmate do: ignore each other’s existence, even though the fact is i’m doing their part of the job all by myself and helps from other groups.
I know, I am wrong for questioning the lecturer’s decision, and it’s actually quite possible to work on the assignment, giving that the first two assignments has been given a week ago and shouldn’t be worked rashly like what i do.
But what can knowing things do? Knowing is only half of the battle, and the very fact that I don’t do anything shows that I’ve lost the battle.
Calm down. Reflect upon anything that has happened, and think about what will happen. No, think about what will you do to make things happen.
Remember that you are a mere flesh with free will and feelings. You may be able to feel discomfort, fear, pain, and hate, but that very feelings allow you to see comfort, joy, and love. It’s easy to color your life and others with smiles, but even easier to stain your life and others with tears.
Remember that you are an imperfect being. You will not, in any case, do anything perfectly. Yet, imperfection brings the joy of ‘improvement’ and the grief that is deterioration. You may not do anything perfectly, but you can do everything better then what you did yesterday. You can, however, do it worst than before.
In any case, just calm down. You may not control what will happen to you, but you can make the difference by deciding how will you react.
- A note from myself to myself, to help my stressful self calm down.
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